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Ten Day Challenge. Day 2.

So, way over on my facebook page a friend challenged me to a 10 day challenge. Normally I won’t do these things but this one piqued my interest. It’s a quite a bit different than your normal “challenges”. At least what’s considered normal for Facebook these day! :)

Here’s the rules:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Here’s my Day 2 –

Nine things about myself:

1. I’m a dreamer and a realist. The dreamer side of me still wants to write children’s books and do photography full-time and be a freelance/travel writer. The realist side of me says I need to take care of my boys. The realist side wins but the dreamer gets visitation.

2. Some of my happiest memories are from years spent doing volunteer work at church. Everything from Acquire the Fire to NBCAA/USCAA basketball tournaments and whatever is in between. I am happiest in God’s presence.

3. I detest drama. With a passion. Even more so when I find that I have inadvertently created it just by saying a few little words in passing. This is what happens when people misconstrue stuff and don’t ask for clarification before spreading the words around.

4. I prefer conversations that aren’t singularly focused. So if we have different variations of the same conversation every time we speak don’t be offended if I look a little bored. You’re not keeping my interest and I’ve already voiced my opinion – probably multiple times. Continuing a previous conversation, however, is completely different.

5. I have systems and/or lists for just about everything. Doing things “fly by night” is very difficult for me because I like to have things planned. No, I’m not OCD, I just like to know what I’m getting into.

6. Contrary to popular belief I don’t like being the center of attention. Every once in a while it’s expected (birthdays and such) but not daily. I have no problem being extroverted but at the end of the day you’ll find me curled up with a book or asleep – not because I’m being rude but because I need to recharge.

7. I’m learning to be more organic and “green” when it comes to life. I fully believe we should be taking care of our Earth but that is also something that starts with the internal. Take care of things at home before trying to conquer the world.

8. I do want to get remarried at some point but I’m leaving it up to God to show me who’s best for me and the boys. No, I’m not dating anyone and am not a fan of blind dates. Yes, there is an interest and no it’s not up for discussion.

9. I absolutely love being a mom. And even though I work a lot now and may go back to school, I would honestly rather be able to stay home with them all the time. There’s so many things to do in a day that just a couple hours after work is not enough time to spend with them.



I sat down last night to write about how alone I feel when I walk into church. It’s amazing to me that even with all of the people I “know” from years past that I can still walk into that church and feel as though I know no one.

When the boys and I first started back at Rhema I dreaded it. It’s not so bad now but I do still have my moments. I’m good getting them into their classes but once those auditorium doors open and I walk in it takes everything in me not to turn and run.

I walk through the doors, smiling at the ushers the whole way down the aisles looking for a seat and once situated I have to make myself breathe. It’s gotten easier. Breathing comes more naturally now and I find myself able to chit-chat with the people around me which helps tons.

And then worship starts. And everything is okay. It’s just me and God.

When the music fades
And all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that’s of worth
That will bless your heart

I’ll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You’re looking into my heart

I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
All about You, Jesus
I’m sorry Lord for the thing I’ve made it
When it’s all about You
It’s all about You Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I’m weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I’ll bring You more than just a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You’re looking into my heart

I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
All about You, Jesus
I’m sorry Lord for the thing I’ve made it
When it’s all about You
It’s all about You Jesus

It’s all about you

God Said It.

Okay. I know I said I wasn’t going to post anything new until I finished up the rest of the drafts I have started but there’s something weighing on my mind. Besides, I’m down to just 4 drafts left anyway. As my kids say, “easy – peasy”!

There’s a misconception surrounding some things in my life. Most people assume that because I’m the one who filed for divorce that it didn’t bother me at all to actually go through it. That’s false in so many ways that that topic alone would be enough fodder for one post in and of itself so I’m not going into it here. What I am going to dwell on this time around are some things I have learned in the last 2.5 years since it was final, most especially the last 6 months or so.

Have you ever notice that it’s so easy to do many things by ourselves but when it comes to church most people cop out because they don’t want to be alone?

Late last summer and into the fall God told me that the boys and I need to be back at Rhema for church. More often than not last year we were not in church which truly bothered me. Between my insane work and school schedules, E’s soccer schedule, and the fact we live 45 minutes to an hour away from most churches the boys like we were rarely able to go. I told God that if He really wanted us back at Rhema He needed to provide the time and a job that gave me that time and would still let me raise my boys.

The holiday season drew closer and if you know anything about being a photographer you know that any holiday is going to be crazy, especially Christmas. Rather than getting more time to be able to drive into Broken Arrow I was working more and more. Between school and work I think my parents saw so much more of my kids than I did. I can’t even begin to count the number of times I would come home only to hug and kiss them goodnight and send them to bed, an hour or two past their bedtime. At least with working for myself I could plan my hours, working for someone else put me at their beck and call and meant that I worked every holiday.

Things at work went from bad to worse. I ended up putting school on hold for the Spring 2010 semester so that my girls at work (and my customers) would have some stability with all the changes that were happening. We lost 1 manager to maternity leave and 1 to a job transfer. In the midst of all of the details involved things got so bad that I was given no choice but to give my notice and leave. No, I wasn’t fired. I just would have spent more money on babysitters than I would have made which is not a good thing. So, I left. On the same day I left so did two of my girls and what had been a fantastically great thing came to an end.

Right around the same time all of this was happening, I interviewed for a job working with my best friend. Several days later I went back for a second interview and was hired. All in all, I spent about 5 days in between jobs and felt like I’d had a mini-vacation. I got to go to nearly all of Winter Bible Seminar which was a huge thing. with my new job, I’m working more of a M-F “bankers hours” schedule so to speak. I also somehow managed to join the choir part of the Easter production “The Choice” performed at Rhema over Easter weekend – mainly so my oldest son could also be in the play.

Since January the boys and I have been back at Rhema. It wasn’t easy going alone at first and still isn’t super easy but I’m getting used to it. I’ve met some very nice people over the last few months. And with a church as big as Rhema it’s very easy to sit in the same place every service and yet not see the same people around you twice.

I have always been a people person, for as long as I can remember anyway. But with the divorce I learned not only some things about myself but who my real friends were/are. In short, my world became very small. I’ve spent the last 2.5 years or so raising my boys and figuring out me, trying to at least. Figuring out when I was most happy and the things that I like to do because I like them not because everyone else does and I tolerate them. One of things the struck me as a “happy time” was volunteering in church, both at Rhema and Victory. That was when I was most “me”.

But, the “me” now has been afraid to go back to the “me” then because that means stepping out of my little world that I’ve become so comfortable in. Taking that huge step and getting back to the basics, going home so to speak. Rhema is after all the reason my family moved to Oklahoma to begin with. I was content, too content, and would have just kept going on the same path I had been on. Not destructive or anything like that just complacent and settled.

But, I did it. I took the huge step of getting out of myself and stepping back onto familiar territory surrounded by unfamiliar faces. I did it because God said to. And you know what, I’m so much happier now that I’m “home” and my kids actually enjoy going to church. God knows what He’s talking about!

WBS 2010. Monday. 10:30AM.

Speaker: Mrs. Lynette Hagin

Stir It Up.

Winter Bible Seminar happens in the winter because winter has less distractions and therefore more time to concentrate on the things of God.

Time to strengthen, renew, and get instructions.

The beginning of the year is a time for reevaluating.

Just as we make plans to change in the natural (ie. diet, exercise) so do we also in the spiritual (ie. reading Bible more, praying more).

Word for the year: Gear Up!

Find the fastest way to do something so you can finish it and move on to the next job and keep going.

Ready to send Jesus back to Earth now … His time. Patience.

We’re praying, “come quickly” but we are sitting down. Get up!

Get stirred up.

2 Timothy 1:6 (ASV)

6 For which cause I put thee in remembrance that thou stir up the gift of God, which is in thee through the laying on of my hands

2 Timothy 1:6 (AMP)

6 That is why I would remind you to stir up (rekindle the embers of, fan the flame of, and keep burning) the [gracious] gift of God, [the inner fire] that is in you by means of the laying on of my hands [with those of the elders at your ordination].

*Stir up the gift of God.

Chocolate Pie:

*Needs ingredients. Not a pie if you just have all of the ingredients on hand. You have to put them in a bowl. You have to stir them. And then stir some more. And heat them. And stir some more. Until it’s just right. Impatience, finishing before it’s ready will cause the pie to not be as good as it should have been.

God is molding us and making us. Stirring us up in areas we are not comfortable with.

1 Corinthians 1:4-25 (AMP)

4 I thank my God at all times for you because of the grace (the favor and spiritual blessing) of God which was bestowed on you in Christ Jesus,5 and and 6 In this way [our] witnessing concerning Christ (the Messiah) was so confirmed and and made sure in you7 That you are not [consciously] falling behind or lacking in any special spiritual endowment or Christian grace [the reception of which is due to the power of divine grace operating in your souls by the Holy Spirit], while you wait and watch [constantly living in hope] for the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and 8 And He will establish you to the end [keep you steadfast, give you strength, and guarantee your vindication; He will be your warrant against all accusation or indictment so that you will be] guiltless and irreproachable in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah).9 God is faithful (reliable, trustworthy, and therefore ever true to His promise, and He can be depended on); by Him you were called into companionship and participation with His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.10 But I urge and entreat you, brethren, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you be in perfect harmony and full agreement in what you say, and that there be no dissensions or factions or divisions among you, but that you be perfectly united in your common understanding and in your opinions and judgments.11 For it has been made clear to me, my brethren, by those of Chloe’s household, that there are contentions and wrangling and factions among you.1213 Is Christ (the Messiah) divided into parts? Was Paul crucified on behalf of you? Or were you baptized into the name of Paul?14 I thank God that I did not baptize any of you except Crispus and Gaius,15 Lest anyone should say that I baptized in my own name.16 [Yes] I did baptize the household of Stephanas also. More than these, I do not remember that I baptized anyone.17 For Christ (the Messiah) sent me out not to baptize but [to evangelize by] preaching the glad tidings (the Gospel), and that not with verbal eloquence, lest the cross of Christ should be deprived of force and emptied of its power and rendered vain (fruitless, void of value, and of no effect).18 For the story and message of the cross is sheer absurdity and folly to those who are perishing and 19 For it is written, I will baffle and and destroy the learning of the learned and the philosophy of the philosophers and the cleverness of the clever and the discernment of the discerning; I will frustrate and nullify [them] and 20 Where is the wise man (the philosopher)? Where is the scribe (the scholar)? Where is the investigator (the logician, the debater) of this present time and age? Has not God shown up the nonsense and the folly of this world’s wisdom?21 For when the world with all its earthly wisdom failed to perceive and recognize and know God by means of its own philosophy, God in His wisdom was pleased through the foolishness of preaching [salvation, procured by Christ and to be had through Him], to save those who believed (who clung to and trusted in and relied on Him).22 For while Jews [demandingly] ask for signs and miracles and Greeks pursue philosophy and wisdom,23 We preach Christ (the Messiah) crucified, [preaching which] to the Jews is a scandal and an offensive stumbling block [that springs a snare or trap], and to the Gentiles it is absurd and utterly unphilosophical nonsense.2425 [This is] because the foolish thing [that has its source in] God is wiser than men, and the weak thing [that springs] from God is stronger than men. [So] that in Him in every respect you were enriched, in full power readiness of speech [to speak of your faith] and complete knowledge illumination [to give you full insight into its meaning]. established [His] being made visible to all. What I mean is this, that each one of you [either] says, I belong to Paul, or I belong to Apollos, or I belong to Cephas (Peter), or I belong to Christ. on their way to perdition, but to us who are being saved it is the [manifestation of] the power of God. render useless bring [them] to nothing. But to those who are called, whether Jew or Greek (Gentile), Christ [is] the Power of God and the Wisdom of God.


None of us pray as much as we need to.

You can have all of the knowledge and information bu unless you use it it will do no good.

Be inspired to pray. Know how to pray.

It is the power of God that is going to break bonds.

“Don’t educate the head at the expense of the heart” ~Dad Hagin

Listen to the Holy Spirit on the inside of us.

Become sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s voice.

1 Corinthians 2:1-10 (AMP)

1 AS FOR myself, brethren, when I came to you, I did not come proclaiming to you the testimony and evidence or mystery and secret and wisdom;23 And I was in (passed into a state of) weakness and fear (dread) and great trembling [after I had come] among you.4 And my language and my message were not set forth in persuasive (enticing and plausible) words of wisdom, but they were in demonstration of the [Holy] Spirit and power [a proof by the Spirit and power of God, operating on me and stirring in the minds of my hearers the most holy emotions and thus persuading them],5 So that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men (human philosophy), but in the power of God.6 Yet when we are among the full-grown (spiritually mature Christians who are ripe in understanding), we do impart a [higher] wisdom (the knowledge of the divine plan previously hidden); but it is indeed not a wisdom of this present age or of this world nor of the leaders and rulers of this age, who are being brought to nothing and are doomed to pass away.7 But rather what we are setting forth is a wisdom of God once hidden [from the human understanding] and now revealed to us by God–[that wisdom] which God devised and decreed before the ages for our glorification [to lift us into the glory of His presence].8 None of the rulers of this age or and recognized and understood this, for if they had, they would never have crucified the Lord of glory.9 But, on the contrary, as the Scripture says, What eye has not seen and ear has not heard and has not entered into the heart of man, [all that] God has prepared (made and keeps ready) for those who love Him [who hold Him in affectionate reverence, promptly obeying Him and gratefully recognizing the benefits He has bestowed]. 10 Yet to us God has unveiled and revealed them by and through His Spirit, for the [Holy] Spirit searches diligently, exploring and examining everything, even sounding the profound and bottomless things of God [the divine counsels and things hidden and beyond man’s scrutiny]. of God [concerning what He has done through Christ for the salvation of men] in lofty words of eloquence or human philosophy For I resolved to know nothing (to be acquainted with nothing, to make a display of the knowledge of nothing, and to be conscious of nothing) among you except Jesus Christ (the Messiah) and Him crucified. world perceived

God has prepared great things for those who love Him.

The more you’re with God, the more your capacity to love God increases. Does God know you love Him or is it only when you need something?

Worship Him.

Draw close to Him.

God has great plans.

Each one of us has a gift from God. We are in God’s “gifted” program! But we haven’t spent enough time with Him to develop our gifts. Instead we spend time developing the gifts we want, not necessarily those He gave us.

If only WE could get out of our way.

Isaiah 55:8-9 (AMP)

8 For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord.9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9 (NIV)

8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.

9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

My thoughts are different from yours.

Don’t be a Corvair Christian – Great on the outside but not so much on the inside.

Develop a relationship with the Heavenly Father as a young child. He will ALWAYS be there.

God has greater plans for you than anything you can imagine.

Jeremiah 29:11

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Take your piece of the puzzle and place it. Don’t worry about other people’s parts and ignore your own piece.

EVERY part of the body of Christ is important.

Listen to the word of God and deliver what He says!

Each person takes their place. Don’t try to do everyone elses part. No one is big enough to fulfill the vision God has for the world. That action will dilute the gift God has given to you.

There may be times you have to take someone elses part TEMPORARILY.

At this point Mrs. Lynette showed us an example of what she meant, using the band as her helpers!

A person trying to be everyone’s part plus their own is like having only a piano for music. The piano has the melody and the rhythm and everything else. (She played the piano!!)

People trying to play other people’s part is like the band members playing instruments they have no knowledge of how to play. (They were horrible!! Imagine Patrick on acoustic guitar!)

People playing the parts they are supposed to play, the ones they have a gift for. (The band was fantastic once they got back on their own instruments!)

WBS 2010. Monday. 8:30AM.

Speaker: Karen Jensen

I was several minutes late to this service, sat down to start taking notes and discovered I’d left my notebook at home. Further investigation revealed the bookstore wouldn’t open til 9:30am. So, this post will be shorter than the rest. I’ll be relying on what I remember and what I managed to send out via Twitter.

She was speaking on the verses where Jesus and Peter both walk on the water.

Here’s what I was able to post via Twitter: (I’ll go into details in a bit.)

*Wind and waves have nothing to do with your miracle. You gotta hold fast to God’s words.

*If Satan can’t make you bad he’ll make you busy. Discipline yourself to listen and focus on God’s directions.

*Faith is based on knowing someone. Strengthen your knowing and you will strengthen your faith.

Matthew 14:22-33

22 And straightway he constrained the disciples to enter into the boat, and to go before him unto the other side, till he should send the multitudes away.23 And after he had sent the multitudes away, he went up into the mountain apart to pray: and when even was come, he was there alone.24 But the boat was now in the midst of the sea, distressed by the waves; for the wind was contrary.25 And in the fourth watch of the night he came unto them, walking upon the sea.26 And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a ghost; and they cried out for fear.27 But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.28 And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee upon the waters.29 And he said, Come. And Peter went down from the boat, and walked upon the waters to come to Jesus.30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried out, saying, Lord, save me.31 And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and took hold of him, and saith unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?32 And when they were gone up into the boat, the wind ceased.33 And they that were in the boat worshipped him, saying, Of a truth thou art the Son of God.

First: Wind and waves have nothing to do with your miracle. You gotta hold fast to God’s words.

We’re not supposed to be able to walk on water. Even if the lake had been as flat as mirrored glass Peter should not have been able to walk on water. But he did. He was focused on Jesus and as long as he focused on Jesus Peter was able to walk on water. As soon as he focused on the wind and waves and let those things distract him, Peter started sinking.

Don’t let the wind and waves distract you from your miracles. Keep your focus.

Second: If Satan can’t make you bad he’ll make you busy. Discipline yourself to listen and focus on God’s directions.

She, Karen Jensen, had an illustration to explain focus. Prayer is like a rope and at the end of that rope is the answer or the miracle. So you pray and you pray and you pray some more. And each time you pray you’re bringing that answer or miracle closer to you. But when life happens, when the wind and the waves happen, and you get distracted, or you get busy, you forget to pray or lose your focus. It doesn’t mean that your answer isn’t coming or that your miracle won’t happen. It means you need to keep your focus on God and continue to trust in Him until such a time as your answer or miracle is revealed. (It’s much more effective when you see the rope tied to a bag and strewn about the stage!)

Third: Faith is based on knowing someone. Strengthen your knowing and you will strengthen your faith.

I love the illustration Karen used for this. She said, “If you needed $200 and I told you to call my dad way up in Oregon and ask him for it, would you?” Think about this. Karen knows her dad. She’s known him for her entire life. You and I have never met him so we do not know him. Karen wouldn’t hesitate to call her dad if she needs $200. You and I,  maybe we’re desperate enough to call him and maybe we wouldn’t but either way we don’t know him so we have no idea what his reaction would be to our request.

It is just like this with our Heavenly Father. The more we know Him, actually know Him, the stronger our faith is  that He will do what he said He would. Think about that.

Okay, that’s all I have from this session. It’s not a lot and it’s a little disjointed but hopefully you got something out of it!

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