I’ve had a lot of things on my mind recently. Normally the end of the year is the time for making adjustments to life; stopping the things that are harmful and adding the things that are helpful. In theory.
Lately I’ve been very restless; spiritually and physically. I feel as though there are major changes coming but am so uncertain as to what they could be. I don’t like uncertainty. I like to have a schedule and a routine. I like knowing how things are going to happen. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy spontaneous moments … but the spontaneous moments that are somewhat planned so that I have a sense of direction. At this point in time I seem to have lost my direction.
Now, I do trust God to take care of my needs according to His riches in glory. My thing is that there are so many things up in the air right now. School. Work. Even where I’m living at the moment is somewhat up in the air.
Maybe that’s the word that works best. I’m back to the point where I’m putting God first (He’s always been there I just haven’t truly put Him first in all the ways I should have lately) and maybe that’s why everything seems so off kilter. i’m out of my comfort zone. Again.